=PRAYERS of a JUNKIE= series of 171 entries spanning 30 years (so far)

 PRAYERS  A JUNKIE #01 
 I USED TO SWIM GET IN MY CAR AND DRIVE TO THE STORES WHERE I BOUGHT THINGS I ENJOYED. I ENJOYED MYSELF, KNEW MYSELF WELL.
NOW I KNOW NOTHING. FREQUENTING HELL.
 STILL I OFFER THIS PETITION:
 THESE JUNK PRAYERS.....................


PRAYERS OF A JUNKIE #70
Monday, December 05, 1999

WHO TRULY STEERS  THEIR DESTINY?
WHO IS CAPTAIN "OF THEIR OWN SHIP"?
I FEEL CONSPIRATUERS NEXT TO ME
THEIR BREATH ACCUSING ME IN A TANGLE TWINE TATTER OF WATTAGE.

YOU SEE, IN THE TRUTH, I DO GET BOREDTHAT'S WHERE I NEED DO,,,
INTERVENING.
SO SURE IS HE OF THIS WEAVED FALSEHOODTHAT IT IS BEYOND QUESTION,INSPECTION.AND LIKE CLOCKWORK AGAIN
IT IS TIME FOR INJECTION.

PRAYERS OF A JUNKIE #108
(also titled FLAGSTAFF c. 2002)
 
TRAINS AND FROST,
POLICE.
"HIGH DEMAND " TO LOW SUPPLY.
POOR QUALITY STUFF / POOR QUALITY HIGH.
HOURS TO FIND ME,,,
IN
THE
TREES.
FUCKED UP AND FUNCTIONALLY,
   ALONE.

#169 PRAYERS o.a.j.  2017

I've said it before I'm at home in stupor..
Stagger naked with the emporers swagger he's
proving her grim words true.  Faith yes faith in the
midst of all this is unseen and so far removed.
He trembles the spoon he calls his cooker and
ponders his age again.  His lower companion. stole
his jacket, bought him lunch like a friend.
Sick, Sad, Settled.  This will do for now.
This will be fine. No,  I'll be okay..
Pinching tight in praying hands his needy, seedy dime.

PRAYERS OF A JUNKIE. #30
1992 to 1994?............

CALLING AND CALLING,
WHY THE WHAT THE HE'LL???
AND PRIVATELY I CONSIDER MYSELF DIGNIFIED.
WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK???  WHY DAMMIT?
THEY DON'T KNOW ME.
YA,  DIGNIFIED... SURE.

PRAYERS OF A JUNKIE #49 1996?

I BELIEVE OH LORD
I BELIEVE ALL THE WAY.

PLEASE DON'T LET THIS TOUCH ME IN MY GOLDEN YEARS.
WISH UPON WISH UPON DAY UPON DAY.
I WILL DELIGHT MYSELF IN YOU OH GOD AND YOU WILL BLESS MY HEART FAT

WITH ;
EARS TO BEAR WITNESS OF YOU.
A GARDEN.
FAVOR.
AND A WIFE KNOWN ALMIGHTY.
MAYBE PLAY SOME DAVID B.?